216 48 My last night in San Fran cisco, I snug gled up in the sleep ing bag and put a can dle in each of Jimmy’s may on naise jars so as to burn up what ever was left of him and wish him well. They burned all night, and in the morn ing I tossed the jars out the win dow to shat ter for the twins to find and mar vel at—a deadman’s glass bones. I was gonna miss that sad lit tle bay-windowed apart ment, with the bad paint in the halls, the grimy gum-pocked stoop, the side walk where those twins were al ways up to some thing. I re mem bered them from a morn ing last win ter under dark en ing skies, Jimmy in the hos pi tal with pneu mo nia. Their father was load ing his truck and they were stand ing shoul der to shoul der, their heads cocked back and their mouths wide open, catch ing the first drops of rain. Lit tle pul lets. I could’ve stopped. Part of me wanted to. I didn’t dare. I hoisted Chief Jo seph up on my shoul der and down the stairs I went. I saw the broken may on naise jars on the side walk, the la bels hold ing some of the broken glass to gether. “Best”—and he was. I’d held him here when he fell into me in his old army coat—so, so thin—the day be fore he died. I kicked the glass off the side walk and into the gut ter. Sorry, Jimmy, but it’s prob ably not safe for the twins. Doing what needed to be done. ...