196 45 Carl was right. It was the most beau ti ful place on earth. All morn ing I rode through roll ing hills with big orange rocky cliffs off in the dis tance, the sun bright and ris ing to ward noon. I’d lucked onto a good road with lit tle traf fic, and the pan cakes and cof fee and warmth had cheered my mood, so it was just me and Jimmy and the world wak ing up, bleed ing out into the end less empty places that stretched so far in every di rec tion around me, I’d get dizzy in the look ing. But some thing sad trailed in my wake too—my mind on how these were all places Jimmy had passed through and left be hind, never to see again. I was run ning back across it all, eras ing them for good, like some old words left be hind on the black board of Jimmy. I thought about him, look ing down at my legs and feet as I ped aled: his dark hairy shins, dir tied with grease from the bike chain mak ing these same mo tions. He saw all the same beau ti ful places, smelled the same sage and ju ni per, felt the same sun, heard the same hawks cry ing out in the sky. I felt then he’d given me this. This whole world out here, like a part ing gift. Two hours later, I was pump ing up a rise, hav ing reached the high red cliffs I’d been watch ing in the dis tance, when ahead I saw a blue pickup on the shoul der, with its hood up. Stalled, I sup posed. As I got closer I could see a long-haired man work ing on the en gine. And then—I couldn’t be lieve my eyes: what looked like Eu gene came spill ing out of the pas sen ger door with a wrench in his hand. 197 “No way!” I said out loud to my self, stopping my bike abruptly a hun dred yards away. It can’t be him—that would be like Jimmy smoke ris ing right out of the bag like a genie. Ge nies, like churches, who of fered three wishes: Eu gene, Eu gene, Eu gene. I coasted for ward to ward the truck, like a wary dog, my heart bang ing around like how it had the day I first set eyes on him. He didn’t see me at first, as he’d hopped around front to give the wrench to the man work ing on the en gine. But then his head popped up, and look ing like a dog him self that could see move ment in the dis tance, he walked out into the road eye ing me as I slowly ap proached, still nearly a hun dred yards down the road. “Eu gene!” I called, un con trol la bly smil ing, and that asym met ri cal grin of his erupted across his face as he rec og nized me and came run ning down the yel low line in his clunky army boots and the same black hoo die from our night to gether in Eu gene. I pumped harder on the ped als so as to reach him—and when I did, I nearly spilled my self off the bike, brak ing abruptly and throw ing out my arms. We hugged over the han dle bars, Jimmy right at our crotches. And I felt Eu gene bleed into me. I didn’t want to let him go; I wanted to tell him about the dream where I saw his eyes and the buf falo and about him on the movie screen and how sorry I was about Cus ter and all them; ac tu ally I wanted to say noth ing and just take him over into the ditch and make love there for an hour. Let my body tell him, let my mouth and eyes and hands and feet and arms and legs and cock tell him every thing I had to say while he did the same. Not a word. I loos ened my hold though, con sid er ing he wasn’t alone, and I was mys tified besides at what he was doing out on this road in a broken-down truck. This was not the way to the...