- My New Friend, and: Disowned, and: Imbalance Appraisal, Homeopath’s Waiting Room
My New Friend
In a photograph, her father’s cap is jaunty, his beard wild. A hooded falcon
poses on his outstretched hand and he is everything you want your father
to be. My new friend doesn’t wear makeup. Her feet are tiny, tattooed. She’s broke,
but spent a whole summer driving the craggy roads of Iceland. She says that
in Reykjavík, they drink until dawn, sometimes after. It’s normal there. In Minnesota, she met
a fly fisherman in the woods, and they made love in the river while timber wolves
skulked nearby. She builds dollhouses, spending hundreds of dollars on tiny chairs, a fireplace
with pasteboard flames, inlaid parquet floors for dining rooms where there will be no meals.
My new friend spent a weekend eating Egyptian blue lotus in Joshua Tree. The night closed [End Page 68]
in around her but she wasn’t scared. This was when she dated a movie star. You know
his name, but I can’t tell you outright. My new friend makes my old friends jealous. They call
her a liar. We were sprawled on the rug, watching television, mooning over River Phoenix
when the fetus she didn’t know was curled inside of her quit its dying and she writhed,
wailing. I led her to the bathroom floor, and as she lay on the cold tile, the low moans
streaked from her mouth like crows.
Disowned
after Toni Morrison
Mother says I am not the villain, but I know that everyone stands for something. That
a name is a prayer and a damning. This novel, its characters named from the Bible,
the Greek: each a consequence of a writer’s fascination with God fury, Earthly women
who won’t obey. I am cast out, hauled back, strung through like the sampler that hangs
in my family’s kitchen, an anniversary gift, the intricacies over which she fretted [End Page 69]
before it was wrapped, handed silently to my father: Bless this house. Before
her eyes began their slow failing and she switched to crosswords
to stave dementia, keep her thinking fresh. The puzzles’ empty squares as tiny as the labels
she sewed into my underwear and socks, lest I ever fail her, lose the fine things she’d given me.
On the evening I was born, my aunt phoned with congratulations, had already embroidered
on a square of linen the date, asked what name they’d chosen. When they explained: how I’d
be called two things, tribute to each of their mothers, she sighed, said
they’d have to pick just one. Only half would fit in the small wooden frame.
Imbalance Appraisal, Homeopath’s Waiting Room
Year of tuna on cracked wheat, slim triangles
wrapped in plastic. Year of the gas station, the toll
violation. Year of passing through. Year of the slow [End Page 70]
cooker—all day heat. Year of the beach chair,
the oiled thigh. Year of the mole, its scalloped edges. Year of the scalpel, the heated coil. Year of the bleed.
Year of the cotton ball, sopping. Year of barium shakes, year
of the long swallow. Year of reds by the glass.
Year of the Vicodin, the Valium. The airport security
line. Year of jet fuel. Year of the pool table, the lifted
skirt. Year of the thumbprint bruise. Year of rate your pain.
Year of 7.5. Year of nuclear medicine, ivs whispering
your belly full of stars. [End Page 71]
Anna Claire Hodge is a PhD student at Florida State University, and her work has appeared in Copper Nickel, Hayden’s Ferry Review, The Journal, The Collagist, Best New Poets 2013, Bellingham Review, Four Way Review, and others. She was awarded a Tennessee Williams Scholarship to the Sewanee Writer’s Conference.