- Recollection, Preempted
I remember crickets, hidden, singing from the green globes of shrubbery. Combed gravel, curved kilometers of ash-grey rivulets not-to-be-played-on.
Woodland fairies beckoning away away
from the eternal drone of the barytone––
meaning Papa Haydn was out composing in the shed by the horse stables: dread work,
all for the musical Prince.
(I was told some of these things.) Heat. An entire afternoon spent in choking dust, teams of servants lighting jars of black tallow along the palace steps, all to make a starry bridge at nightfall when the guests arrived
for one of Papa’s amusements–– ceaseless operas, human and marionette: inconsequential music, even to a boy’s ears. [End Page 677]
(The puppet theatre was my favorite hiding place: dark but glimmering, a cave inside a treasure chest. I sang to myself. It was like being buried in jewels.)
But oh, the witchery of orchestral strings–– the full body of sound gathering you in, as to a mother’s bosom or a haystack at sunset, to plunge into that stinging embrace . . .
(I was caught listening and given a toy violin.)
That last year in heaven, the withering prince crammed every crevice of time with farces—as if to laugh were health itself: Barbiere di Siviglia, Paisiello’s L’amor contrastato, Cimarosa’s Ilcredulo and L’impressario in angustie.
I remember this, I do! When we were told to leave I committed the season’s program to memory. “ Glory for us, boy,” Father growled; “away from this hinterland!” But I saw the triumph in the head porter’s frown, and dwarf Johann weeping along the road, tiny under his bulging pack.
Papa Haydn in a waistcoat. standing by the shed. [End Page 678]
I confess, I don’t know why I lie so. We were far away by then––beyond Paris and the revolution, beyond even my sensational debuts at Brighton and Bath. [End Page 679]