Orphans

46

46 When I get to my building, I stand there in the shadows looking at my window, waiting for movement, something , anything that will allow me to get Shalla’s attention. When she finally appears though, I know it is impossible . She is with my Terrax. She is with me. She is staring out of the window, his arms around her waist, a small tear lingering on her cheek. I want to believe she can see me, but if she does she doesn’t acknowledge me. Instead she turns to him, me, and strokes his cheek. He smiles and they walk away. I linger for a moment, but I know that this is why John let me leave, and why Al B said I couldn’t go home again. I have no home. I head to the lake. I pick my way through the huts until I reach Lebowski’s. I breathe in the night air. I grab a kite-board and walk down to the water. And then I paddle into the darkness. ...