259 59 I headed south (what color was that? And I looked at my fin ger nails: red). I fol lowed the Big Horn River, through a town called Basin and past moun tains that looked like heaps of ice cream. Kiss ing Eu gene. He too, dis ap pear ing and yet ex pand ing into every thing just like Jimmy. I pressed on, sing ing pop songs in order to pull . . . Care free High way, let me slip away, slip away on you . . . and hear ing Eu gene hum ming those In dian songs. All the way to Wor land, where a big green high way sign got my at ten tion. It read: “Buf falo 97 miles.” “Huh?” I took a left and headed for it. Al most made it too. Miles and miles I rode, right through a town called Ten Sleep— named for time, a lady in a mini mart who I bought a bot tle of Crazy Horse from told me: “Num ber of nights between one In dian camp and an other.” But there were no In dians out on that high way—just big-rig trucks, and lots of them. I white-knuckled my han dle bars, clenched my jaw, gnawed on my tongue—like a hand it was, run ning down the brick wall of my teeth. Too many trucks. Buf falo herds of them. Me run ning, run ning hard like a horse, hear ing the deaf en ing sound of an enor mous mi gra tion, like drums, and then voices, like birds—crows caw ing, 260 finches whis tling, and fi nally geese honk ing loud right be hind me—and I was pulled into the song of it all—I sprouted wings, great black wings—and I flew. . . . Oh shit,” in the im mor tal words of Louis No Wind. But I was the deer this time, air borne and on my way into the ditch on the side of the road. Which, as I flew out ward over it, I re al ized was more than a ditch. More like a whole creek bed, deep and slop ing down, down, down. A beau ti ful cot ton wood, like a great green flower, sat in the vase of the lit tle can yon, and it whis pered a koan: Hoka hey. I let go of the bike and leaned back, strangely calm, time ar rested. We sep ar ated like a rocket from its booster. Me the booster, left to fall away, while the bike con tin ued on into the great green, sil very blos som of Venus, un du lat ing in the breeze. I landed hard on my butt, to ward my left side, and as I did, I felt a ter rible pain stab through my left leg. I slid through stone and brush, grab bing for any thing I could get my hands on, try ing to slow down, my leg now throb bing, send ing shoot ing ar rows of pain into my brain, as a dusty brown cloud rose around me. In the dis tance I heard a crash and knew that that was the bike. It had reached the base of the tree and the water next to it, as I’d heard a splash among the sounds, which were crash ing and me tal lic, ca coph o nous with bounc ing rub ber, the thrown-sack thud of the pan niers, rocks and dirt and brush dis turbed. I waited for every thing to stop—for the si lence—to as sess the wreck. I waited until the cloud of dust floated above me through the branches of the cot ton wood, where I heard the birds again. They flew in and out of its branches, which spread out over and above me. There was the wind too, and grass hop pers, bees, flies, the water bab bling—and all along the creek bed, choke cherry and wil low. Eden, the se quel. And then the pain, like a stone, an enor mous heavy glow ing hot stone right in the cen ter of my left thigh. Flat on my back, I didn’t want [18.117.186.92] Project MUSE (2024-04-25 07:26 GMT) 261 to look. In stead I rolled my head back and looked up be hind me, from where I’d come. The road. Dear lost road. It was at...