61 16 Up in Son oma County some one had painted that Kat mandu Bud dha on a barn and it made me think of Jimmy’s third-eye tat too. “It was very cool once,” he’d said as we lolled on the bed, “but so were a lot of things. I wanna get rid of it.” I agreed with him, it was sort of ri dic u lous, es pe cially com pared with the beau ti ful Chi nese one etched on his side burn that re minded me of his good ness. Yet after a while the third-eye tat too seemed so sweet. Jimmy’s mis take. Jimmy’d get shy when I’d run my fin ger around it. It was a black cir cle with a red dot in the cen ter, more a bull’s-eye than a human eye. “The third eye is the bull’s-eye, silly,” he’d razzed me when I’d men tioned it looked more like a dart board than an oph thal mo log i cal spec i men. “How ’bout add ing a tear?” I said an i mat edly. “I never killed any body. Shut up,” he said, fur row ing his brow. “So, the real third eye—is it open, Jimmy?” “I found you, didn’t I? Must be.” He winked. “Ah, Jimmy, I’m not third-eye stuff. Hell, I wouldn’t even wanna know what I looked like through a third eye. Prob ably like one of my friggin’ paint ings.” He looked of fended and fur rowed his brow again. “Hey, I like your paint ings.” “Do you really?” “Yeah, I do.” 62 “Why?” “I don’t know, it’s like you turn your anger into some thing funny. I don’t know how to do that. I mean, my poetry isn’t funny.” “Your tat too is funny.” “Fuck you,” he said with a smile. The tim bre of his voice. “Your anger is ac tu ally kinda sexy, Jimmy.” “Nice to know it makes some one happy.” “See? You’re sar cas tic. That’s a kind of funny.” He nod ded and sighed. “If we were clowns, Jimmy, you’d be like the hobo clown with the frown . . . and I’d be like the white face paint psycho kind.” He guf fawed. “You’re not as crazy as you think you are.” “And you’re not as se ri ous, Jimmy. You al ways laugh after you cum.” “Maybe that’s be cause sex is sort of ri dic u lous once you’ve got ten it out of your system.” “Or maybe we need to have more sex so things are fun nier?” Brows high, the ques tion that was my face. He guf fawed again. “You are crazy.” And he kissed me. And not long after that we were naked and pretty soon we were laugh ing too. And then Jimmy was up on his feet and ready to go out for cof fee. And like we did a mil lion times (I wish, but it was more like a few dozen, Jimmy not being here that long—it felt like a mil lion all the same), off we’d go to sit in cafés like two kids with our pro jects. He’d lay out his strings, a hand ful he’d tied to his wrist that morn ing after re mov ing them from the bike. Me, I’d sit and sketch up new Marie An toi nette ideas: as Ro nald Rea gan (let them eat ketchup); as a Pal es tin ian teen ager (let them live in ref u gee camps for three gen er a tions); as two guys hav ing sex (let them laugh like clowns). “You’re more of a per former than a painter, I think,” Jimmy said. “I’m no art ist, am I, Jimmy? These things are crap.” He laughed, and then he stopped when he saw I wasn’t say ing it hu mor ously. “Maybe you should take an act ing class or some thing.” [52.14.126.74] Project MUSE (2024-04-20 06:07 GMT) 63 “Yeah, then we could be come porn stars and laugh at each other,” I sighed. He rolled his eyes. “I just mean it’s good to try some thing dif fer ent for a change.” “Like fight no more for ever?” He...