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Tattered Fate
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163 Tat tered Fate Yes, in Con stan tin o ple my father had his small father lands, his won drous worlds, to which his soul be came ac cus tomed and poured out streams of ideas and con fes sions. Af ter ward, lost in his thoughts, as he passed by the Great Eyüp Mosque, play fully dec o rated in faience and mar ble, an i mated by the flight of the pi geons cir cling eter nally around its tow er ing min a ret, my father would turn his gaze and thoughts to ward Sul tan Eyüp’s tomb and the Eyüp ce me tery, with its count less carved tur bans by the exit; he would walk along the Av e nue of the Forty Stairs so he could climb up the hill from where the sight of the Golden Horn cap ti vated the viewer. Here was his cho sen café, where he gath ered his thoughts and wrote some down. This café was known to him through the nov els of the fa mous French writer Pierre Loti, who from this van tage point pre served the great Con stan tin o ple fan tasy of a by gone time, with which, in the form of Orien tal ex ot i cism, he flirted for years with his many read ers, who them selves never under stood the Bal kan Ot to man drama. When my father came here for the first time, he thought back on the re la tion ship of Atatürk to such ex otic nov els, es pe cially those of Pierre Loti, which looked on the Ot to man Em pire only as a gar den of all pos sible earthly de lights. Atatürk was par tic u larly trou bled by the con stant im ages in West ern nov els in which Mus lim women were por trayed as slaves in vast har ems, satis fy ing the frus trated West ern reader’s dis placed dreams of a woman, for ever sub mis sive, ac com pa nied by a splen did hookah and a box of Turk ish de light. The epoch of the ex otic Aziy ade as well as the mys tic der vishes that in tox i cated West ern read ers was, in Atatürk’s opin ion, de cid edly in the past. 164 Here, upon this hill, beside the Golden Horn, each had his vi sion of Con stan tin o ple, of a time that was van ish ing into the shad ows of his tory and a time that was un fold ing. Each had his own ac counts to set tle with his coun try and with this im pe rial city. Here each de clared war or peace with Con stan tin o ple. My father watched the in tel li gent steps that Atatürk made in his at tempts to sal vage the es sen tial core of Turk ish iden tity from the col lapse of the Ot to man Em pire. Atatürk saved what could be saved, but my father, an or di nary stu dent from Con stan tin o ple Uni ver sity, with a head brim ming with the stat utes of sharia law and the old forms of the Ot to man ad min is tra tion, the Balkans’ raw wounds on his mind, plus a yearn ing for fam ily that pulled him to ward the Bal kans, what could he save? The Turks, to gether with Atatürk, would turn to the core of their na tion, to An a to lia, but where would my father go, where would he turn to in the Bal kans, where the red-hot lava of the Ot to man Em pire had flared for cen tu ries and had not yet cooled. Atatürk, as if with the sword of Dam o cles, would sever the knot of the Ot to man era and would build his coun try from the last bul wark of its po ten tial iden tity. Yes, Atatürk would eas ily free him self from the il lu sions of the Ot to man era, but what would be come of us, his fel low cit i zens of the Ot to man Em pire, those of us in the Bal kans, where the...