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Dreams of a Lost Time
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90 Dreams of a Lost Time For every one in the fam ily sleep was the great est treas ure. The dreams of poor peo ple know no bor ders; they are sim i lar the world over. The dreams of poor ref u gee fam i lies are a great treas ure. Father and Mother often told us that events in our dreams some times took place in the aban doned house next to the lake, on the op po site shore, across the bor der in our na tive coun try. If we had each told our dreams, some one could have com piled a har mo ni ous mo saic of our aban doned coun try, whose mem ory had be come so faded in the re al ity of fleet ing time and for get ful ness. Mother’s dreams traveled far ther, push ing through the lab y rinth of the family’s aban doned houses. They made their way down to her na tive Les ko vik, to the Albanian–Greek bor der and be yond; they reached her close kin in Ja nina and from there went on ward to Sal o nika. She went to her fam ily, to the rel a tives of her mother, who had died so young, seek ing a lit tle fa mil ial warmth. In her dreams she found the lost full ness of life. My father’s dreams were also filled with an ces tors and close kin who came to dis cuss he red i tary land or to give their views on the inter pre ta tion of am big u ous deeds of title. My father dreamed of his own land and his own house, to which he never re turned and which, through var i ous di vi sions and con fis ca tions, re mained whole only in his dreams. Our dreams, children’s dreams, made their way to the lake, up to the for mer bor der, and there they stopped. The dreams reached the mon as tery at the very bor der above the lake, the bor der that di vided the two quar rel ing coun tries, closed to each other. Many years later, after the bor ders had lost their for mer sig nifi cance and our dreams had worn away, our close rel a tives, whom we had not seen for a whole life time, came to see us from be yond the bor der. 91 Years and years had gone by with out our hav ing be come ac quainted, and yet, the older folks, un known to us younger fam ily mem bers, told us we were close kin. So we began to tell our dreams, dreams dreamed on both sides of the bor der, that Bal kan Wall. Our dreams were so sim i lar that we could com plete each other’s, dreams of lost Bal kan time . . . ...