- The Neon Hollywood Cowboy
the night i punctured an artery with a syringe tip, cuspate sharp like clam exoskeleton, the california dusk
was electric. my mother cried from her ohio bedroom,imagining her only son dying under the belly
of west coast porcelain. when i lived at home, i would ask her where the backpack of scars living all over her body came from.
from carrying you, my child, she would say.
when testosterone enanthate was removed fromillegal doping markets, the number one song in america
was "honky tonk women," & los angeles livedbehind locked doors. my mother could feel the needle
rupturing through my transversus abdominis, the splittingof skin like a kitchen knife tearing through leather.
my chromosomes, graffitied with an avenue of half of my mother'sgene cells. lime green fluorescent from the neighbor
drug store painting my fetal-positioned body. my roommateopened the hotel window to hear the strip's radio. let it bleed
in stereo filling the streets. i am of this garden of thornsgrowing on my injection site. here in the neon dusk,
i am a door the shape of a slow-draining disco. [End Page 29]
Matt Mitchell lives in Columbus, Ohio. He is the author of The Neon Hollywood Cowboy (forthcoming). He tweets @matt_mitchell48.