- Four Poems
To Nicholas From My Absence
You are now you have been you are now seventeenWhen I was seventeen I had theYear before met my fatherWhom I had known before but I had been
Kidnapped for thirteen years and thousandsOf miles away in nowhere he would think to look for meBut I know where you are and weKnow where we are I send you texts and you send
Texts back from fewer thousands ofMiles from it's Maps I just checked says it's fifteen hundred milesAway from fifteen hundred miles away [End Page 268] When I was seventeen I couldn't loveMy father like his childWhom I had been when I was three I am a blank where I should be [End Page 269]
The Professor
The air is colder than the light in the airNo fog no smoke but the light hangs on the airLike fog like smoke I'm walking to the bakeryOn Amsterdam across from the cathedral
A middle-aged man wearing a tweed cap andA limp blue Members Only jacket passes meAnd a black face mask with a white skullPrinted on it but death is a professor everywhere
What have you learned he asksWhat do you knowI turn the corner and the sidewalk's full of stu-dents everybody's parents sent them hoping
Back elsewhere the professor hangs his jacket on his chairSighs off his cap tightens his mask [End Page 270]
Arm in the Excavator's Shovel
The excavation ripples through the bodyThe skeleton in dirt the dirt at certainDepths relative to the skeleton corre- sponds to the shape of the living person
Thus anyone with the right coordinatesCould dig the shape of the person from the dirtBut made of dirt but with his skeleton Inside it would it be an it
When cradled in the living arms of the workerBecause no excavator has yet beenDesigned to fear the thing it rips from the dirt No excavator would be gen-
tle enough not to break the simulac-rum from its bone original and frame [End Page 271] Or would the crumbling shape become a him The excavator tears an arm
Off and it dangles from the shovel asClumps of dirt fall through the shovel's teeth meat cookedFrom the bone the shovel raised to the sky a mouth Gaping forever and a sac-
rificial altar if one's it the otherMust be him a worker waves her armsThe skull at her feet but who does not praise The mouth to whom the body comes [End Page 272]
That Time is a Refining Fire
being a recapitulation of the "Fresh Eyes for a Fresh World" sections of Sometimes I Never Suffered
As Earth began with first each fewTen million years then hundred thousand thenTen thousand thousand hundred ten and nowEach week almost each day began
To seem like Heaven more like Heaven in his eyesThe hastily assembled angel moreSlowly as time moved forward seemed at leastTo move things changed and time seemed to be there
Somewhere between the insides of and out-side changing things and each new generationOf human beings saw most familiar things replaced and mostHow else could they survive the angel [End Page 273] Wondered most thought Obsolete things return improved in timeAnd time connects them to the versions ofThemselves that were once themAnd are not now as we will be ourselves
In better lives but still ourselves in the futureAnd we will feel a happiness then weDon't feel we can't feel now ourAnticipation is its echo and sustains us the hastily
Assembled angel struggled not to butForgot what Heaven was like and only slowedBy struggling forgetting whatHe best remembers he's not sure he knows
The colors he remembers all the colorsOf Heaven but in Heaven he hadn't learned [End Page 274] The differences between colors and all theColors were one color like one fire...