- Philomath
"Love of learning" is what Philomath means. This side of a ghosttown, what kids are here hang out in gravel parking lots & huntpixelated deer at The Woodsman. They break into gutted sanctuariesof timber mills, looking for places to leave their neon aerosoled names. In Philomath,Begg's Tires is the only place to buy new chains, Cherry Tree's the bestprice on feed, & Ray's has everything from meds to milk to LuckyStrikes & pocket knives. The only outlet in Philomath sells wood, the kind that growsjust here & in the holy lands. True Value boasts all the sturdy deadbolts for when the back door's gone busted again. My friendMegan is still giving out blow jobs to mechanics & drinkingred cough syrup until she doesn't care about her step-dad walking around, covered in nothing but sweat & dirt. "Me & you aregonna get trashed tonight," she says to me every night. I ask my dad if Megan can movein, & he says, "twelve cats & two dogs are enough." In Philomath, I'd be lyingif I said people don't get saved every week at the Nazarene Church, whereMegan & I go to vacation Bible school & sing about going "straightto heaven or down the hole," where the pastor slips nylons over our faces & tells us to suckpudding from a bucket just to show how far we'll go to be forgiven. We swallow it all [End Page 24] because this is how you get close to God in Philomath. When Megan's dad learnsshe's saved & he's not, he teaches her a lesson about beingsorry & how God is not watching Philomath. On Monday, Megan's eyescan hardly open, & our school bans liquid paper & permanentmarkers & the word "bomb," because they could cause usto die before our time. Megan spends breaks in the bathroom, & I know notto follow her. I go to the library, where I check out A Season in Hell because they don'thave Illuminations & never will, & I feel alone around all the smart kids who raise uppigs to pay for college. They belong to 4h & know how to sell livingmeat to the highest bidder. They get made fun of by people like Megan & me& the boys who only wear camo & talk about the beauty of a deerspitting up its life & most anybody the teachers have given upon, which is nearly everyone. I care about Philomath and its "Loveof Learning" bumper stickers that turn invisible under mud, its historicalsociety that hangs quilts over the walls of Paul'sPlace (where loggers get Bottomless Joe), that documents every haunting,every sighting of a ghost, & Megan is still in the bathroom stall, learning what it meansto be in Philomath for good. [End Page 25]
Devon Walker-Figueroa lives in Iowa City, where she serves as the poetry editor of the Iowa Review and as co-founding editor of Horsethief Books. Her poems have appeared or are forthcoming in the American Poetry Review, Los Angeles Review of Books, Tin House Online, Diagram, and Southword. She is completing her MFA in poetry at the Iowa Writers' Workshop.