- Bell
When a ninety-three-year-old gets diagnosed and I say,“It’s OK. She’s lived a long life,”
I hear the little bell inside my head tolland know that I have fucked up. Because
isn’t a betrayal always a betrayalfirst, even before logic, or euphemism—
even for a body on loan?And doesn’t a mother follow suit?
A mother is always, even whenthe lights are turned low for bed,
and her body you borrowedfor a blanket once turns away
and out the door.The bell rings: remember
sleeping in the car on a trip across country,and how we came to a clearing
around a bend. The sky was suddenlyvisible again after miles of dark wood.
She turned around then, too, I imagine,whispering: Baby, you ever afraid
of the dark any more?
The line in italics is from Joan Didion’s story “The Welfare Island Ferry.” [End Page 107]
kay cosgrove’s poetry has appeared in Prairie Schooner, The Massachusetts Review, and FIELD. She received her PhD in American literature and creative writing from the University of Houston, and she currently teaches at Saint Joseph’s University as a visiting assistant professor of English.