held down in a body you are no longer

held down in a body		you are no longer
	afraid of
the dark not a dark	you	let into     the light
	look   at	me     when
	I’m	fucking
	you
	even though	there are     no
doors     there is the shape of a door
in hoarfrost a bird	on its back
what is it in us
forgotten	names shape
		need
	every winter is     a winter of fire
	the sun	raising
all that     breath	from	the grass
I don’t think it matters     what
	you think	the ghosts
still		believe
		in us
were you
	singing
	I wouldn’t know
	in whose hand
s     he was where	are my hands     $20	for a blow job
in the world	there is not enough	come
I can only	what I love	kill
	about the window	it
		is less       the animal
	’s body	grown from cold
		more the
	fallen	from which
		she will eat
	what is	without hunger
	is not protected   from
know		ing
the bones	will not dissolve	in my mouth
I
cannot keep	stopping	like
		this
holding	my own head     underneath
the water
	what the light	promises
will thaw	let us	all
	remember	that
the very brave woman	is only a	very brave
	woman if	she could have made
	some other
choice even	god     can’t say	maybe
soon         if not	tonight
		I’m going out
	beside the highway       and	opening up