四首诗
Rent from DeepDyve- 四首诗
我的歌厅生意
我得雇一些女人在她们额上掀动黄昏，
给她们线，不给线头。疼她们，不怜悯。
我多么熟悉她们身上的豹子，热血让树叶哗哗作响。
在她们的喘息里我得说到瓷，深渊，
但我恨我的冷漠在她们身上变为寂静。
我得学得像她们一样点钱，唱跑调的歌，爱不值得爱的人……
我得雇她们教我去没有野心地绝望地生活。
我往前走了几步
我往前走了几步，街面宽阔、冰冷，像削平的铁板。人像火烧着，狠狠地，彼此，越来越多淤积在偶尔的抽泣、踌躇和盲目中。 [End Page 128]
故乡 2002
冬天。一个巨大国度的遗容在我手上是枝条也是镣铐。白日正落向我充满石灰的荫沉但缠绕杂声的身体。
不是结尾，是纪念
突然收住，黑暗在缰绳手里，有一条告别之路。
一小匙糖在风中，衣领在甲板上，祖国在剁肉的案板里碎成一个家。
哭泣倒下，我不需要任何人，为我站着。
把一条街站斜，把死亡站成一排排僵直的广场之树。 [End Page 130]
Four Poems
Sun Lei
My Nightclub Business
I must hire some womenstir dusk on their foreheads
give them thread, not thread endsadore them, not pity them
I know so well the leopards on their bodieshot blood that shuffles leaves
In their pantingI must evoke porcelain, abyss
But I hate my aloofnessthat turns into stillness on their bodies
I must learn to be like themcount money, sing off-key, love those who are unworthy of love . . .
I must hire them to teach meto live without ambition and despondently
I Advance a Few Steps
I advance a few steps.Wide, icy street, like a dressed iron plate.People burn one another, like fire, cruelly, increasinglysilted up in sporadic sobs, hesitation and aimlessness. [End Page 129]
Homeland 2002
Winter. Remains of a colossal country are branches as well as handcuffs in my hands.Daylight is falling on my body shrouded in decayed lime but twined in a cacophony.
Not the End, But a Memorial
Abruptly withdrawndarkness in the hands of reinshas a farewell road
A teaspoon of sugar in the windshirt collar on a deckMotherland shatters into a familyon a chopping board
Weeping fallsI need no oneto stand for meStand till a street tilts
Stand up deathin rows of stiff treesin the square [End Page 131]
Sun Lei 孙磊 (1971-) was born in Jinan, Shandong Province, and became a key figure of the post-1970s Chinese poets. His 2005 collection, Perform, was one of the ten bestselling poetry titles of the year. Recipient of the 2000 Rougang Poetry Award, he is the founding editor of the literary journal Who. Also an accomplished painter and installation artist, he teaches at Central Academy of Fine Arts and Shandong University of Arts. He lives in Beijing and Jinan with his wife, poet Yu Xiang, and their son.
Fiona Sze-Lorrain (1980-) was born in Singapore and educated at Columbia University, New York University, and Paris IV-Sorbonne, where she received a doctorate in French. She writes and translates in English, French, and Chinese. Her first collection of poetry, Water the Moon, was published in 2010. She is an editor at Cerise Press and Vif Éditions. Also a zheng concertist, she lives in Paris, France.
