三首詩
Rent from DeepDyve- 三首詩
寫詩是可恥的
奧茨維辛之後，寫詩是可恥的。八八風災之後，寫詩是可恥的。只要還有人餓肚子，寫詩是可恥的。跟家人借錢不還的人，寫詩是可恥的。剛剛壓死了兩隻螞蟻的人，寫詩是可恥的。連字都寫不好的人，寫詩是可恥的。不夠孤獨的人，寫詩是可恥的。一再的確認了各種羞恥之後，還要寫詩。我是可恥的。不管怎樣，我要寫詩。一再的確認，我要寫詩……
除了寫詩的羞恥，我不願忍受其他的羞恥。
2010
生 ／日
這一天，我聽到某種召喚那絕非來自光明
這一天，我感受到喪子之痛但我卻沒有兒女我失去所愛卻不知我愛的是什麼
這一天，我只想大睡一場從另一個夢中醒來丟掉必須穿衣的禮貌 [End Page 112]
胡思亂想的惡習露出尖牙與利齒
這一天，我想要記住活著就是一種恥辱我的美德與笑容都已耗盡
這一天，我想要知道什麼樣的人該受什麼樣的苦？什麼樣的夢才會是最後一個夢？
2009
足夠的死
沒有一個死者能帶走什麼沒有一個死者不留下什麼
未完成的計畫未獲回覆的信來不及銷毀的作品垃圾、八卦、負債、襪子上的黴菌……
在死後仍持續增加的敵人與朋友在死後仍持續成長的一張臉終將代替了，原來的臉
沒有一個死亡，足夠消滅沒有一個地獄，足夠遙遠
2010 [End Page 114]
Three Poems
Yinni
It Is Shameful to Write Poetry
after Auschwitz, it is shameful to write poetryafter the August 8th flood, it is shameful to write poetryas long as there's someone starving, it is shameful to write poetryfor someone who doesn't pay back a debt, it is shameful to write poetryfor someone who has crushed two ants, it is shameful to write poetryfor someone who can't write characters well, it is shameful to write poetryfor someone who is not lonely enough, it is shameful to write poetryhaving acknowledged all forms of shame, yet still to be writing poetryI am shamefulnothing matters, I continue to write poetryacknowledging this fact again and again, I continue to write poetry . . .
I refuse to suffer all shame except the shame of writing poetry
(2010)
Birth-Day
on this day, I heard a callingbut it didn't come from any light
on this day, I feel the pain of losing my sonbut I have no childrenI have lost my belovedbut I don't know who I loved
on this day, all I want to do is get a long sleepwake up from another dreamforget the etiquette of covering myself with clothes [End Page 113] bad habits of fantasizingand showing my menacing sharp teeth
on this day, I'd like to rememberto live is to live in shameall my virtues and smileshave been depleted
on this day, I'd like to knowwhat kind of persondeserves what kind of suffering?what kind of dreamis the last dream?
(2009)
Enough Death
not a single person can die and take something with himnot a single person dies without leaving something behind
projects to be completedletters to reply towritings to be burnedtrash, gossip, debts, mold on one's socks . . .
after a person dies, enemies and friends continue to multiplyafter a person dies, his face continues to growtill in the end it overtakes the original face
not a single death is enough to destroy it allnot a single hell is far enough
(2010) [End Page 115]
Yinni 隱匿 (1969-) is the pen name of a Taiwanese poet who, with her husband, runs Youhe Books, an independent bookstore in Danshuei District, New Taipei City. Her third and most recent book of poetry is How Can It Be (2011).
Michelle Yeh was born and raised in Taiwan. She received her doctorate in comparative literature from the University of Southern California and has been teaching at the University of California-Davis since 1988. A scholar and translator, she has published more than a dozen books, including Modern Chinese Poetry: Theory and Practice Since 1917, Anthology of Modern Chinese Poetry (edited and translated into English, 1994), No Trace of the Gardener: Poems of Yang Mu (cotranslated into English, 1998), Essays on Modern Chinese Poetry (in Chinese, 1998), From the Margin: An Alternative Tradition of Modern Chinese Poetry (in Chinese, 2000), Frontier Taiwan: An Anthology of Modern Chinese Poetry (coedited and cotranslated; English and Chinese editions, 2001), and Iconography of the Sea: Poems of Derek Walcott (translated into Chinese, 2001).
