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Forrest Hamer - Letter from Cuba - Callaloo 26:1 Callaloo 26.1 (2003) 84-85

Letter from Cuba

Forrest Hamer


It takes two full days away before I stop worrying about my work.
On the third day, I go back to stops on the tour from the day
    before; and by the end of the fourth day, whether I see more
    sights no longer matters.
After a week, I think I could leave my life.
I have been here longer than I can say.
There are moments I am in Goldsboro or Mobile or Savannah, and
    it is the time we are children and the weather hot, and the
    people mostly our family, and the air is fragrant with
    flowers, pig slop, and gasoline, and there are crops to be cut.
My heart is nearly breaking.
One afternoon, I sat in the white sand and looked across the
    Atlantic.
I thought how long ago some of us ended up here and some of us
    ended up there.
Restlessness still washes me over in waves.
Kind and handsome men come up to me to practice their English,
    they want to sell me cigars and rum, a cheaper room, a meal
    at a cousin's paladar, a woman, themselves.
No, no, I say. I want you to tell me the stories.
We walk or we sit down and eat, and I listen, asking, I'd like
    please to practice my Spanish.
When you see me again, my brother, my sister, I will be calmer.
The Yoruba priest tossed cowrie shells several times at my feet,
    telling me to make offerings to hold on to my money, to be
protected from accidents, for me to be married.
He told me I could change, if I wanted.
He didn't know what I wanted him to know about me.
And I was surprised to learn what I wanted. [End Page 84]
One day, walking the center of Havana, I tripped and fell to my
    knees.
I'd been looking up at crumbling buildings, I was listening to
    music coming from someone's open windows, and I was
    trying to place a voice.
Everyone moved toward me with concern.
I'm fine, I kept saying in English, thank you.
It's true what they say: there is beautiful music here, and it is
    everywhere.
There is music some places in the world that makes me wish.
Instead of settling down, I could have wandered.
I could have loved some others; I could have loved much more.
I could have lived other lives.
"Where you from, Martinique? Bahamas? Americano? You like Tupac?"
I'm not sure I know the America they ask me about.
I tell them I listen to the blues. I tell them I listen to opera.
Sometimes, on the way home from work, I hear salsa.
The poet who read only in Spanish made me close my eyes.
I was falling and falling into a voice.
Not knowing her language, I finally heard the poems.
And when it was my turn, mi hermana, mi hermano, waters swelled
    deep within me, and I spoke back.


 

Forrest Hamer is a practicing psychologist in Oakland, CA. Call & Response (1995), his first collection of poems, won the Beatrice Hawley Award, and was followed in 2000 by Middle Ear, winner of the Bay Area Book Reviewers Association Award.

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1080-6512
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2003-03-24
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