- Shame
I drag my shame outside for a walk because it needs a little air,
and we head for the quaint shopping district, where my shame and I can make a round
of the plaza, ringed with open-air cafés, and maybe stop for a drink.
At first I wonder why people are looking at us, but then I look down, and
get it—my shame, after all, exudes a certain odor, sweats profusely,
and it’s difficult to tell exactly what it looks like, or how tall it is, or even
what sex it is. Suddenly I feel it twitching as if it’s about to make a run for it—
which makes me grab its hand, or what passes for a hand. So now
my shame and I are walking hand-in-whatever by the shop windows, and we can see
our reflection, and I watch us pretending not to look.
O how shameful my shame is! But this time together has brought us closer,
and now my arm’s around its shoulder and I’m no longer in a hurry [End Page 135]
and the air feels so fresh and sunlight so soft that I turn to my shame and say,
“Hey.” And my shame gives me through what I think are its eyes
such a look of pity that I jam my hands in my pockets, we skip the café, and I try
to lose it in the crowd. By the time I reach my front door, I am breathing hard, and
I don’t see my shame anymore. I have dinner with the children, my wife
gives me kiss, I lock the doors and shut the lights. But in the bathroom that night, as I brush my teeth
and look into the mirror, there it is, staring at me, stubborn, hairy, stout—
and I’m still not sure why I find it so attractive. [End Page 136]
Rich Levy is a poet and, since 1995, executive director of Inprint, a nonprofit literary arts organization based in Houston, Texas. His poems have appeared in Pool, Boulevard, Gulf Coast, High Plains Literary Review, The Texas Observer, and elsewhere.