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Proxy Baptism

From: Colorado Review
Volume 40, Number 1, Spring 2013
pp. 115-116 | 10.1353/col.2013.0010

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It happens each day.
        Black water
scallops like obsidian. I begin

to count backward
      in a dory, between
oars, duffle coat draped stiff

from my shoulders. I’m unsure
        of the time,
    of what I’ll do—the lake
        of blue petals
below. Over the bow my fingers
        brush water,

leave small wakes.
      I make a mess of things.
A bird sings from the bank

like a needle. Something lodges
        like a pit
    in my throat. My mouth

pries open, oblivious. Willow
        juts through my teeth
    like bees, and I forget

my body, my hands, like an argument,
      while, at the river’s edge,
    families hold candles
close to their moonlit
      nightgowns, as they whisper
when they turn from me,

as I empty
    past them, try to tell them
the war is over
      (though it isn’t) and wake
a deer bent down
      inside me—
    I’m alone.

      I believe I’m alone
          when I’m alone.
I cannot move, and a woman
        is taking my hair.

Justin Boening  

Justin Boening is the author of Self-Portrait as Missing Person, which was selected by Dara Wier for a Poetry Society of America’s National Chapbook Fellowship. He’s currently finishing his first full-length collection with support from Bucknell University, where he’s the Roth Resident at the Stadler Center for Poetry.

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