Publication Year: 2013
Published by: University of Iowa Press
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Thanks to our families for their patience (and for not giving up on our sanity) throughout our fi ve-year road trip through fandom. We couldn’t have done it without their support and the support of the rest of our SPN Family—the cast, the crew, and our fellow fangirls who’ve come along on the journey. People on both sides shared their insights and feelings about the ...
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Kathy yanked the wheel of our rented PT Cruiser sharply to the right, tires screeching as we drove way too fast through the unfamiliar streets of San Diego. Lynn scowled from the passenger seat, clutching the door han-dle as the car barely held the turn. In the back seat, Sabrina wisely stayed At 4 a.m., the massive glass and concrete convention center up ahead was ...
One - Falling Down the Rabbit Hole
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Long before we started writing about being fans, we simply lived it. And there was nothing intellectual or rational about it, as our 4 a.m. dash to Comic Con makes clear. What is it about being a fan that makes us, and so many others, push the boundaries of common sense to pursue the emo-tional rush of fandom? What was compelling enough to make us trade our ...
Two - Seeking Asylum
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In May 2007, actor and object-of-our-affection Jensen Ackles traveled to England to appear at his fi rst fan convention, Asylum. We, unfortunately, did not follow. Instead Lynn sat glumly in Starbucks frowning into her chai, while Kathy tried to turn the disappointment into constructive discussion. Lynn pondered. “Place of refuge? Fans coming together, feeling safe?”...
Three - Get a (Sex) Life
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On our fi rst fannish excursion to Fort Worth, we were already struggling to balance our fan lives with our real-life responsibilities (mother, partner, friend, professor), torn between the fi rst love thrill of fandom and our some-times debilitating guilt about indulging our passion—a guilt that we sus-pected might not be so strongly felt if we had been avid knitters or garden-...
Four - Hollywood Babylon
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Lynn had sampled a little bit of it while missing out on Asylum but gulped down a bitter helping when we failed to meet Ackles in Texas. All the way back to the East Coast, and for weeks after, she berated herself for choosing pancakes over Jensen on opening night and for returning home rather than staying for additional nights (and thus additional opportuni-...
Five - Fear and Loathing in Vancouver
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We are not optimists by nature or conditioning. Kathy quietly moves through life on the assumption that nothing will work out and that complete happi-ness is a media construct, something that happens in fi lms and Jane Austen novels but never in real life. Lynn is right there with her for the most part, though perhaps less quiet in her assurance that doom lurks behind doors ...
Six - Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell
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Our experience in Vancouver changed us. The suspicion, stigma, and shame that we’d encountered confi rmed Kathy’s desire to differentiate her-self from “fangirls.” She never wanted to be looked at that way again. Even Lynn’s fannish enthusiasm was dampened. By the time we arrived at the fi rst Creation convention featuring Supernatural in Chicago in November ...
Seven - Coming Out in LA
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...“Ladies and gentlemen, we’re having a slight problem with the left engine. Someone should be here shortly to fi x it, and then we’ll get underway to Los Kathy, a white-knuckle fl ier under the best of circumstances, did not take the news well. As always in these situations she imagined wrench-wield-ing gremlins perched on the wing of the plane. (She had watched a lot of ...
Eight - Playing the Fame Game
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No matter how sunny it had been in LA, it was cold and dark back in the mid-Atlantic a few weeks later. Kathy was tripping the light fantastic. These were the days she lived for. The day of our phone interview with Eric Kripke, Kathy was happily driving up I-95 toward Lynn’s house, with her favorite Finnish Goth band providing appropriate accompaniment as the ...
Nine - Stuck in the Middle (with You)
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As we moved back and forth between our identities as fans and as research-ers, we began to occupy a strange middle ground, which carried with it both the thrill of being an insider and the risk of alienating the community of fans that we valued being a part of. Everyone who’s straddled the line has had to negotiate a balance. When we weren’t trying to wangle our way into ...
Ten - Working for the Man
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Our honeymoon with the TPTB began in earnest after Comic Con. True to their word, our prospective publishers put us in touch with the editor of Supernatural Magazine. Suddenly, instead of writing fanfi ction about our fa-vorite show, we were hired to write articles for its “offi cial” magazine. We’d gone from underground, secret, and subversive to sold-at-every-bookstore ...
Eleven - The Sweet Spot
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For reasons that we’ll never really be sure of, Warner Brothers liked us very much that December. So much, in fact, that they offered us a set visit. Could we be on a plane and in Vancouver in a week? Was that a rhetorical question? Screw the end of the semester, forget grading fi nals, never mind that we were both in the thick of holiday hell. We knew this was going to be ...
Twelve - The Monster at the End of This Book
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We left Vancouver with the interviews that would fi nish our book. Super-natural Magazine liked our convention feature article and let us know it would welcome more. We started presenting our research on fandom at academic conferences and got a positive reception from our colleagues. These people knew us as Dr. Larsen and Dr. Zubernis, an English profes-...
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Page Count: 265
Illustrations: 22 b&w photos
Publication Year: 2013
Series Editor Byline: John Smith, Will Wordsworth