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novela

39 novela what went through your mind the first time he kissed you on the mouth the wide open yawn of it the gassy cabbage rot of tío’s empty stomach you are the luminous province girl caridad on mahal na mahal the maids’ favorite radio novela tío is estevan g.i. baby guapong guapo self-made millionaire playboy amerikano nose & colgate teeth when tío is sleeping you whisper in the dark estevan estevan mahal na mahal i love i love kita you the next day during recess arturo wins 6 of your precious marbles you fight the urge to throw him against the handball court sully the starched ironed cotton of his white uniform & force your furious lips on him like the pock marked 40 mando estevan’s chuper when he trapped the fair skinned caridad behind the house humiliate arturo in front of the entire 2nd grade class you don’t & afford arturo friend since birth godbrother the platinum gleam of the noon sun the giddy thrill of his win but you plot someday someday remember the ache when you discovered tío kissing dulce servant girl the same way he kissed you how he kneaded her small breasts grunting dulce short snort breaths & you wanted it so badly to be you underneath the weight of him instead tío shooed you away stamped his foot like you were a neighborhood stray & you ran hid underneath the house clutching your box of marbles against your chest as if you were hiding breasts 41 you swallowed marble after marble wishing dulce harm tuberculosis missing teeth merciless beatingspregnancy exile & now what comes to mind when your pale-skinned lover kisses you on the mouth under the splendid dome of twilight you can’t understand why he chose you dark pockmarked haunted you & your empty rot your silly threats ultimatums his adoration inexhaustible you despise his love his eagerness to rescue you from your demons each night you draw marbles from deep down & fill his sleeping mouth command him to repeat caridad i i love i love you so much i love you caridad. ...