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Seven Aubades for Summer
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16 SEVENAUBADESFORSUMMER dayone Ireadtheroofnextdoor.Iread theshingles,theirstony overlap,thestubbornlook mygrandmothergaveme:Iwon’t walkthatstreet.Ihate thosepeople.Butshedidn’t saythat.Iwasachild.Andtoprotect istochangethesubject andleavethewound,only oneofus staringdownanddown.Soitwas sheclippedthebrownglass toherglassesandwe tookadifferentroute.Brick sidewalk,weedygrass.Theshrug ofasmalltown.Andhersteel, aflashofit.Onebirdoutthere can’tgetoverhissong.Torepeat istoremember.Torememberistogo onandon.Anyway,myhusband saidthismorning,throwingback thesheet. 17 daytwo Noonetakecredit.Itcametome inadreamisallanyone cansay.Thedreamoftwosparks makesanotherspark.Andifonly Icouldthinkbeyondandmoreoddly,this stolidwhatever-it-is,thisstanza aroom,justafigureinadoorway abouttoleave ortoenter.Itwasmymother comebacktolife,somuchyounger asIslept,plottingherself outofamarriage.SoIfinally witnessedit,themomentsheopenedandclosed andopened.Buthowdiditend? Mystandingthere,mywantingto... Andthesequel,her splinteredlookofnoandyes.AndIwas thechildwhoemptiedtosay anythingatall. That’ssummer,isn’tit?Theearthturned towardinsteadofaway.Ittakesawholenight todothat.She’sabusylittlebee,Iheard someonesayyesterday,eachwordastone setdowncarefully,eachweighing apoundortwo.Iworkonthat,both theacidandthepraise.Nothing’ssimple, noteventhestartoftheday. [3.144.161.116] Project MUSE (2024-04-26 15:11 GMT) 18 daythree Carsgoeitherwayupthestreet, blueanddarkgreenandred,white andoffwhite,dashesofcolor thatvanishunderfabric— someonepatient,someonestitching. Andcloser,thosetrees,conifers,both ofthemolderthanIam,huge. AndifIfind griefintheirshadethisearly,ifI findmyownblurredself castonthegroundthere,ashape, shadow,nottherealbranch andshiver,whatamI—athief,aliar? ButIwould.I’dsteal fromthosetrees,howdaylightcomes andthrowsthemoutofthemselves ontowalkwayandgrass.Ithoughtstain. Ithoughtlocked-to-it,these yearsandyears. 19 dayfour Mybrotherontheporchonce inlightlikethis,aiminghiscameraoffits sturdytripod,blackandbigenough toleaveasleepingbabyin whodreamswithout language,withoutanypastatall. Sohedisappeared insideitsshroud,weirdcostume inamiracleplay,notthehorse’sheadkept forthepageantbutaboxthatrepeats andstills,thisdarkhepullsoverhimself tobenoonethelongmoment.What didthelensnarrowto,ifnot—no— theclematispurplingwildly initsfretwork. [3.144.161.116] Project MUSE (2024-04-26 15:11 GMT) 20 dayfive Hereissummer,saidthelight.Welcometomyhunger, saidthewren,trillingsidewaysandout.Andthenuthatch,his elegantgloomovereverythingisnevertheless sweet.Shrinkitdown,make itstay.Betweenleafandleafiswind butonlytheleafsaysso.Orbothofthem.Orallofthem, brieffrenzy.Iknewnight allnight. 21 daysix IfIskippedaday,wouldtherebe asong?Letthecatdoit,stretched onthebed,sprawledagainstme,notwary foronce.Lettheprintofaprintofaprint Doréoncedid doit,thereonthewall,angelsinthedark comingatmeoffashipinthosewaters, the19th centuryendlessandadrift andneverlightenoughtosee.Letthethree doorsofthisroomopentoit.Letthelaundrybasket overflowwithit.Letthebookspiled whicheverwayandtoomany doit,cryaubade,cry wordnooneknowsanymore, itslittleschemetostoptime almoststopped.Letmytea doit,ahitofmilk,no...