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50 Eucharist Today when you left I could not breathe. My eyes folded up in me. I had become the woman I thought I would never be because who would be worthy and besides I’d never have the courage. Now all the strength I trained for— to not need—I need even more to need you. A child cries from our room. She is not our daughter but another coming through the monitor while ours sleeps beside me. I break into a loaf of bread as if it could be your body. I think I understand it now. I miss you in my mouth. ...

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