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5. Why I Write
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83 k 5 Why I Write In 2003 grad u ate stu dents in the his tory de part ment at Co lum bia Uni ver sity or ga nized a con fer ence, “Why We Write: The Pol i tics and Prac tice of Writ ing for So cial Change.” Their in vi ta tion to me to speak at the con fer ence was an op por tu nity to re turn to the cam pus where I had been both an under grad u ate and a grad u ate stu dent. It was also an op por tu nity to re flect upon the un ex pected circum stances of my life—that, against the odds and much to my sur prise, writ ing be came a major part of what I do in the world. k One can never pre dict what a sim ple in vi ta tion to give a talk can pro voke. Think ing about this panel and the theme of the con fer ence has made me re al ize how lucky I am and how blessed I have been. I have had a solid quar ter cen tury of writ ing of things that I care about pas sion ately and that at least a few other folks care about, too. Every day I carry with me the cer tainty that the heart of my work, my writ ing, has made a dif fer ence in the world. This essay first ap peared in Jim Downs, ed., Why We Write: The Pol i tics and Prac tice of Writ ing for So cial Change (New York: Rout ledge, 2005), 11–16. Part II: Doing History 84 But why do I write? I write be cause some one—a fel low grad u ate stu dent—told me one day that I was good at it. More than three decades later, I re mem ber the mo ment as if it had hap pened yes ter day. A small group of Co lum bia his tory stu dents was meet ing at my River side Drive rail road flat to put to gether the next issue of Com mon Sense, our rabblerousing news let ter. Ex cept for my desk, which was a six-foot-long plank stretched across a pair of two-drawer file cab i nets, every thing else was close to the ground. My bed was on the floor. My din ing table was a painted wood board rest ing on milk crates. My sofa was the mat tress of a twin bed pressed against a wall with some pil lows as back ing and a paisley-patterned sheet as cov er ing. Sev eral of us were squat ting on the floor and hunched over the table, rul ers in hand, pains tak ingly creat ing head lines by press ing let ters, one at a time, onto the mock-up of our news let ter. Rich ard, mean while, had wan dered over to my desk, where he stood read ing pages of my not-yet-proofed master’s essay. He looked down in my di rec tion and, with a mix ture of sur prise and ad mi ra tion, said, “You write so well!” Rich ard and I had only a pass ing ac quain tance. He was a year ahead of me in the pro gram. He had no rea son at all to flat ter me. No one had ever said such a thing to me be fore. It was shock ing and rev el a tory. It opened up for me the pos sibil ity that writ ing—not sim ply re search, or study, or teach ing—was some thing I might do. Why else do I write? I write be cause read ing his tory books saved my life, and I have been bold—or fool ish— enough to think that maybe my writ ing could do the same for some one else. The north east Bronx, where I grew up, was more than a world away from the Mor ning side Heights cam pus of Co lum bia Uni ver sity. The com bi na tion of fer vid anti com mu nism and Roman Cath o lic moral ab so lut ism made for an en vi ron ment in which cer ti tude was a fun da men tal prin ci ple. The de scrip...