62 10 Death came and went at will in our fam ily dur ing times of war, re set tle ment, drought, and hun ger; many of Mother’s del i cate off spring died. A newborn’s fin gers that had still not been held soon pulled away from Mother’s with ered breasts. We all had a lit tle brother or sis ter whom death had car ried off, and we never got over our loss. We be lieved that our goat would now keep death from ap proach ing our fam ily when ever it wanted. Hun ger spread through the coun try, but in the Goat herd Quar ter, a happy time was dawn ing with the goats. No one knew how long this time would last, but no mat ter how long it lasted, it was im por tant to take ad van tage of it to give strength to our lives and move us from child hood to youth, from youth to adult hood. The city awoke to yet more pos ters and slo gans, both old and new: “Long live So cial ism!” “Our fu ture is Com mu nism!” “Tito and Sta lin are our Fu ture!” “Death to the class enemy!” “Broth er hood and Unity!” “Death to the Spec u la tors!” “Long live the Col lec tives!” “Death to . . .” Death to this, death to that. We did not under stand the mean ing of these slo gans. We no ticed only that the more there were, the more stores 63 were emp tied, pri vate busi nesses were closed, and prices rose. So we chil dren were fright ened by these new slo gans. We were fright ened most of all when the day dawned with a new slo gan: “Death to the goats!” My mother was near ing the end of her preg nancy, but she could not free her self of house hold wor ries and main tain ing her usual order. Nearly at the limit of her ca pac ity to give birth, she en tered into an un cer tain bat tle between the strength of her body and the life of this new born. After so many deaths, this birth was a strike back at fate, a way out, a re newal of hope. God seemed to keep these Bal kan moth ers alive longer than their in fants. Dressed in black, they were the last to ex tin guish, like long ta pers sym bol iz ing fam ily and life it self. When they lost a more grown-up son or daugh ter, they would curse God that he had not taken them. But God in fused their dark ened souls with new strength to en dure. No one could under stand the mean ing of this black cir cle of life. Every new birth was a hol i day for the Goat herd Quar ter. Every fam ily re joiced as much as if it were their own new born. Life con tin ued, new life after so many deaths in the Great War. But the waves of the war had cast up Noah’s arks filled with the many fam i lies res cued from all parts of the Bal kans and be yond. There were even some Se phar dic Jew ish fam i lies; there was an Ar me nian fam ily of musi cians, and a Rus sian fam ily, res cued from the Oc to ber Rev o lu tion; there were sev eral Turk ish fam i lies as well as sev eral fam i lies from Ae gean Mac e do nia; and here was our Al ba nian fam ily amidst the large Mac e do nian pop u la tion, which had landed in this small Goat herd Quar ter. But also other, un known fam i lies came and left the Goat herd Quar ter. Here were inter min gled na tion al ities, faiths, and cus toms; peo ple lived in trust, under stand ing; to gether they more eas ily coun tered the blows of fate in those un cer tain times. Be cause the great wars and the strat e gies of those who waged them had not fate fully al ien ated them from each other, be cause no frat ri ci dal war had been in flicted upon them as in other parts of the Bal...