247 55 L ouis found us sleep ing under a blan ket. “Hoka hey!” he shouted. He clamped the new hose in place in no time while Eu gene lit up his pipe. Back on the road, I asked Louis why he kept call ing me Blue Truck. He shrugged his shoul ders. “If I’m Blue Truck, I’d have a bad car bu re tor,” I pro tested. He arched one eye brow. “Then you’d be Blue Truck with a Bad Car bu re tor.” “But doesn’t it need to make some kind of sense—like shouldn’t I have asthma or some thing?” “Do ya?” “No.” “Well then, we’ll just keep it Blue Truck.” He looked at me. I looked at him. He was be gin ning to sound like one of the eight-year-olds at the Y. “You aren’t mak ing any sense.” “No, I’m not. And that’s just the point.” The ques tion that was my face. I looked at Eu gene, who just grinned and leaned for ward to the wind shield and looked sky ward and did the sign lan guage mo tion for clouds, my fa vor ite signed word—a roil ing, boil ing hand-over-hand Chi nese tai chi ex pres sion of grace. “Well, Blue Truck, it makes total sense if you get it.” 248 I looked back at him, per plexed. “You know, Blue Truck, when you just know some thing?” (and he pounded his heart with his closed fist). I con sid ered it and then I nod ded. I knew. Like know ing I needed to bathe Jimmy. Know ing he was a horse and a sal mon both. See ing Eu gene in the mar ket, just like a tur nip, pulled up out of the soil, and me know ing I needed a tur nip. How I knew I needed to tell him every thing and didn’t need to talk to him at all. “But not if you think about it,” Louis warned me. I smiled. After a while, Eu gene pulled out nail polish and set to paint ing my fin ger nails: one yel low; one red; one black; one white; and leav ing the thumb un painted. “I’m talk ing about the spirit world here, and I prob ably shouldn’t be. Smoke, he’s wiser—he keeps his mouth shut.” “Well, we’re all Cath o lics here, right?” He looked at me again. “Are we?” “It said so in that book.” “Cath o lic, eh? I wouldn’t really call that the spirit world.” “I’m sorta jok ing.” “Sorta?” “Well, I like Mary and churches, but I’m more of a Bud dhist, I guess.” “Nam ramay kyo, all that?” “No, not that kind.” “That’s good— though I do know a woman in Man der son who got a lot of ap pli ances using that chant. There’s some thing to it.” I held up my hand and Eu gene blew on it. Then he started in on his own. “La kota col ors you got there, the four di rec tions.” Louis ges tured with his head. “Do I make a wish?” I was think ing I’d get four in stead of the usual three. [18.221.85.33] Project MUSE (2024-04-25 12:40 GMT) 249 “No.” And he fur rowed his brow. “The power is in ask ing for help, not wish ing for it, Blue Truck. That’s what cry ing for a vi sion is about.” “Cry ing for a vi sion?” “Well, that’s In dian for ask ing . . . like really ask ing.” And he punched his heart. “So then, some one like Crazy Horse asked?” “He asked to be shown how he could serve his peo ple.” I nod ded. “But you see, the point is: a vi sion an swers a ques tion. There’s no wish ing. It’s about mak ing a de ci sion to serve, ask ing how, then lis ten ing, and then doing it.” “So, did Eu gene cry for a vi sion?” And I looked at him, his head now rest ing in my lap as, hold ing aloft his hands, he con tin ued paint ing his nails. “Yeah, out there in Ore gon, be fore I met him. Spirit told him to go back home.” I looked...