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My Father’s Dictionaries
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33 My Father’s Dic tion ar ies In the final years of his life, as he slowly lost the strength to read, my father be came less and less alive. When I saw that he no longer read or com mented on the books I brought him, but only held them ab sently in his hands, ap pear ing to read, tak ing in some mean ing that he alone under stood, tears would come un bid den to my eyes. I would gently try to take the book from him and read aloud from the opened page, but this created a dif fer ent prob lem, since he could not com pletely fol low what I was read ing. Thus I slowly lost my father and he his books. In a life ex tended across many lan guages, my father never at tained com plete mas tery of one lan guage. He had within him the en ergy of the many lan guages he knew, that he had stud ied in depth, com pared, and en riched. To ward the end of his life, as his strength for read ing de creased, my father, to our great amaze ment, con tin ued to learn new lan guages, to pe ruse old and new gram mars, to buy new dic tion ar ies, to fall into a strange as so cia tive lan guage dream. He learned new words, created inter lin gu is tic co in ages, be liev ing that he would come at last to his own lin guis tic eu reka, which would en able him to move, when nec es sary, from one lan guage to an other and so be under stood by every one. He died with a dic tion ary in his hands. My father died un trans lated . . . ...