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An American Tale of Sex and Death
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9 AnAmericanTaleofSexandDeath BeforeI’dfeltthepromisedkissofeither— pinktongueofone,featheredbreathoftheother— Iknewtheirkinshipamonglordsoflife andfealtyI’dpayfrompocketorheart, orboth.StoicCatholicteacher-priests hadcededthesubjecttoshockedlocker roomgossip,soimaginemywonder, childofthefatbook,whenIblunderedon RomeoandJulietinthelibrary Carnegie’ssteelmonopolygifted myHoosiertown.Ohhowthebard’slanguage spilledlikesunlightthroughtheoft-zitteddome shroudingmygreenteenagebrain,averbal hubbubabovethefleshandbrashswordplay. Ourplayathomefeaturedyardstick-duels, mysistertrilling,“Avaunt,arrantknave” untilIthwackedherknucklesandshecried. Senttomyroom,IbledMercutio’s lastgaspintoredcarpet,perfecting theraisedhead’sfall.Byluck,Zeffirelli’s classicmovieremakegracedthedowntown Paramount’ssaggingscreen.Itcostaweek’s lunchmoney,gladfasting,sofriendsandI mighttreatasweettrioofgirlsbeneath thebalcony’sstifflip.I’dlovetosay ourhand-holding,likeanygatewaydrug, 10 ledtohigherpleasures,butminewasgreased withpopcornslurbandherswaswetwithsweat. Don’tsweatthetruth:Itwasn’tmyheart’sfirst norlastdiffidentfailure,andthistime IlookedupwhenOliviaHussey’s olivechestsplashedonscreen,eachbreastmaybe fourfeetacrossanddeeplycleaved.ThoughI’d seenothersflashedinstickymagazines flooringtheburned-outbasementwherebadboys sniffedglue,andthoughsinceI’veheldlove’sample gifts,nonewasasmonstrouslyglorious astheseShakespeareconjuredinseriftype. WhowasCapuletandwhoMontague Idon’tremember,northeactor’sname whoplayedRomeoinstitchedelastic tights,thattoo-prissynarcissisticfool. Wethreefoolsofbrushedvelourmournedthosebreasts amidsttheclimax’ssadcollapse.Moping andhushed,wewalkedourbrickstreetshome,thegirls safelystation-wagonedoffbymommy. Thatnotoneofusboyshadtouchedany sweateredbreastmeantnotalick.Confusion fueledourhormonalmusings,April’68, afewtickslatefortheSummerofLove we’dreadaboutsoundlyafterthefact. AcrowdfrothedaroundtheYMCA, someonewithayellowbullhornlathered thenightfacesthatdippedandroselikewaves ofinlandseas.WhenweturnedonLincoln, thebullhorn’sfeedbackasked,Hey,what’sthetime? [18.191.84.32] Project MUSE (2024-04-26 14:42 GMT) 11 Thetime’sanswer:Onefistsmashedmyglasses, anothermywhitecheek.Eachswingbroughtits ownbrass-knuckledreply:“TimeforDr.King,” “TimeforourMissRosa,”“Mytime,mo-fo”— eachquickpunchablunt,punctuatedgrunt. Irope-a-dopedaswouldAliinhis ThrillainManila,tilleachhaddone withmewhathewould.Theyellowbullhorn bellowed,What’sthetime?Thebrothersanswered, BlackPower,BlackPower,untilIknew whatitwastohavenone.Indewygrass, beneathasappymaple,Ilookedin theireyesandtheyinmine.Allright,welooked butdidn’t—this,thedayMartingothis. Hiswasdeath,thoughI’dliketosayIlearned afleshedlesson—oneyoucarryfolded inthepocketyourwallet’sin,something tomullintraffic,awaitingthedoc, orpoppingcornfortherentedmovie thekidscan’twatch.You’rewaitingtohearit, whiteAmerica,soyoucansmirkyour absolution.Andyes,you’rewaitingtoo, blackAmerica,soyoucanshakeyourhead, Idon’tgetit.Whenthetwentyfinished withme,theychanteddownLincoln’srubble. Oneman,eyeingmynear-sightedfumble andplea,pickedupmytoothickblack-rimmedspecs andplacedthemgentlyonmyswollenface. 12 “Faceit,youatthewrongplaceatthewrong time,brother.”Hesaidbrother.Throughcrackedlens, wemight’vebeen—hisfacepiecedtogether asPicassoknewbeforethefirstwar, beforethesecond,beforeJeanieCreek tendedmylumps,shepregnantbyablack guyherparentswouldn’tlethermarry. Herradiospunthewebwe...