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Title Page, Copyright

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pp. i-vi

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Translators' Foreword

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pp. vii-viii

...during the almost thirty-three years since then, a host of other topics relating to Sino-Japanese relations have come up, but none more engaging than the autobiography of this Japanese China enthusiast with its insights into...

Contents

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pp. ix-x

List of Illustrations

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pp. xi-xii

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Miyazaki Toten: The Dream and The Life

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pp. xiii-xxx

...to helping their Chinese friends overthrow the Manchu dynasty. Toten saw that overthrow as an essential first step in a world-wide crusade for freedom and justice in which his role was that of a chivalrous Lafayette to Sun Yat-sen's Washington. A...

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HALF MY LIFE A DREAM, I LONG FOR FALLEN BLOSSOMS

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pp. 3-4

...sounds the bell. Some rejoice to see a branch heavy with blossoms, laden as though with snow; others delight in the wild blizzard of blossoms before the wind. Ten cases, ten tastes: each of us...

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MY NATIVE HILLS AND RIVERS

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pp. 5-7

...children too are there in the same village. Faithful to the dream of their husband and father, they have endured all kinds of hardship. If they...

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MY FAMILY

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pp. 8-10

...watermelons that he had grown himself and go through the village giving them to the aged and the sick. And I remember how frightened I could be sometimes when, after having had too much sake to drink, he would wave his arms around and bellow some...

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MIDDLE SCHOOL AND THE OE ACADEMY

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pp. 11-17

...government." All they could think of was a government position. But to me officials and administrators were robbers or criminals, and I considered them enemies of the movement for freedom...

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I ABANDON MYSELF TO DESPAIR

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pp. 18-20

...time when everything I saw was new and novel to me, nothing astonished me more than the transformation of my friend. To begin with, I could not get over the change in his outward appearance...

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I BECOME A CHRISTIAN

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pp. 21-30

...my heart to some degree. One Sunday evening Araki was serving as my guide again on a stroll; when we passed in front of a Christian church on our way back, he suggested that...

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CHANGES IN MY IDEAS, AND MY FIRST LOVE

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pp. 31-45

...of a bad crop the family finances were strained, and they would be unable to send me money for schooling for some time. So Yazo and I came home; we three brothers were together again...

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I SET MY COURSE

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pp. 46-50

...solution to the problem of hunger. There was the difference, of course, that though I had wandered off the track by entering the byway of love instead of concentrating on the problem, Yazo had not allowed anything to take priority...

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I ENTER THE COUNTRY OF MY DREAMS

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pp. 51-53

...with great eloquence. He now asserted the inanity of spiritual theories and argued that only materialism made any sense. In an overnight reversal of his previous positions he held...

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FOUR WASTED YEARS

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pp. 54-64

...case was "Count" Rice. Nevertheless I was a long time getting over the resentment I had for him for having forced me to exchange the sights of the continent for the pleasures of home...

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I GO TO SIAM

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pp. 65-79

...What did the host and his guests discuss? It was Yazo, speaking softly, who discussed the matters of great importance. It was the unsung hero who listened gravely and quietly. And...

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THREE MONTHS IN JAPAN AGAIN

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pp. 80-95

...appearance and air roused suspicion; I was often denied a room at inns where they did not know me. Since I was worried about this, and thought I wouldn't fit a high-class place, I asked the rickshaw man to...

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MY SECOND TRIP TO SIAM

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pp. 96-107

...a banker and trader between Siam and Japan, all of us were poor fellows. If we had to stay in Hong Kong for even ten days, we would run out of money for room and board. It was as clear as fire before our eyes that we were facing a crisis...

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ALAS, YAZO DEAD!

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pp. 108-114

...ludicrous substitute. When we got to Hong Kong we broke our agreement not to drink and argued stubbornly over who was to blame. Then came negotiations with the Japanese consulate...

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A NEW LIFE OPENS FOR ME

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pp. 115-120

...of lamentation. I was distraught and had no idea of what I should do. My friends in Siam must have become angry and must have thought I was irresponsible. They must certainly have been...

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I ENTER THE COUNTRY OF MY DREAMS A SECOND TIME

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pp. 121-129

...orders from the Foreign Ministry to investigate the state of secret societies in China. I was still in the hospital. When I got the order I persuaded the hospital head to release me...

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SUN YAT-SEN, THE LEADER OF THE HSING-CHUNG HUI

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pp. 130-140

...thirteen, he went to be with his eldest brother, who had migrated to Hawaii and was regarded as one of the well-to-do. He went to an American school there and was converted to...

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AMATEUR DIPLOMAT

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pp. 141-158

...and energetically set about on the reform of the national government. The conservative faction that was in power opposed this, and the political situation in...

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K'ANG YU-WEI ENTERS JAPAN

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pp. 159-176

...he would see to it that the passenger list was restricted to Japanese and English, and that he would have the steamship leave the harbor...

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OUR ACTIVITIES IN THE TROUBLED WORLD OF SOUTHEAST ASIA

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pp. 177-189

...our friend Inukai had been able to provide collapsed overnight. Moreover, I had failed in my attempts to bring about the cooperation between K'ang Yu-wei and Sun Yat-sen that I had dreamed of; K'ang had left the country for different climes...

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A DRAMATIC CHANGE

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pp. 190-202

...accompanied by several of his men. Ch'en Shao-pai suggested that I wait for them in Hong Kong rather than proceed to inland China for the observation Sun Yat-sen had asked me...

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OUR EXPEDITION TO THE SOUTH

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pp. 203-212

...had been living with me and taking care of me for several months. I was able to give her almost nothing in the way of support, and couldn't even provide pin money. Although it pained me to see...

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ARRESTED IN SINGAPORE

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pp. 213-233

...Kiyofuji ordered the girl to cool some beer in preparation for the night's drinking. Then he called in the houseboy, who was named Yoshimura, and began to play go with him. I had no difficulty in keeping up with Kiyofuji when it came to drinking...

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GENERAL HEADQUARTERS ON BOARD THE SADO MARU

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pp. 234-245

...through a heavy fog. But in fact the ocean was calm, and the ship made good progress. The Sado Maru was scheduled to dock at noon, but it arrived four hours ahead of schedule and...

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THE FAILURE OF OUR PLANS

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pp. 246-250

...near the shore. From Uchida and Suenaga Junichiro I learned what had happened since our departure and that Suenaga Setsu and Tajima were in Shanghai organizing comrades there. As old friends gradually located our residence it once again...

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MY LETTER TO SUN YAT-SEN

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pp. 251-267

...indignation. I thought of how little one could depend on people, and what a terrible thing the human heart was. And I myself became suspicious of people. I began to suspect that our Japanese...

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THE HUICHOU INCIDENT

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pp. 268-279

...province to assemble six hundred volunteers at a mountain stronghold in Sanchout'ien [Samchautin], (Sanchout'ien is near Tap'eng Bay [Mirs Bay] in Kwangtung, and about a...

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I SING OF FALLEN FLOWERS

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pp. 280-284

...thoughts at that time? Of course his only concern is the satisfaction of his supporters, and he does not think about his own fate. I had always clung to my great purpose and high hope. Tomeka, naturally...

APPENDIX

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pp. 285-298

Index of Names

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pp. 299-303