Cover

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Title Page, Copyright, Dedication, Frontispiece

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Contents

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Prologue: October 18, 1999

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pp. xi-xi

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1 Fair Arcadian Hill

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pp. 1-7

"If you were a painter and wanted to paint the ideal college, you'd go out there and paint that quad," mused President James F. Jones, always known as . . .

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2 Millennium Girl

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pp. 9-23

This is Maggie Wardle in third grade, as seen through those same green eyes. The words are printed carefully in pencil on soft, buff-colored paper lined in blue. The letters are shaped beautifully, even . . .

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3 Wounded Bird

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pp. 25-54

It's difficult to find a picture of Neenef Odah smiling, though the first thing his good friends mention is his comedy. Dan Poskey says he often smiled, but "more like a half-smile."The photo that comes . . .

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4 So Scared and So Lost

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pp. 55-82

When exams ended in the spring of 1999 and the deep green summer settled in, Maggie's crew dispersed. She moved back to the octagon house in Plainwell. She would be working for . . .

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5 Homecoming

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pp. 83-103

The convocation that opens each academic year at Kalamazoo College invariably takes place under the same perfect sky: brilliant blue, lit by sharp mid-September sunlight. . . .

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6 This Endless Night

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pp. 105-129

At about 11:20 p.m., something prompted Navin Anthony to check on his neighbor. Not realizing that Maggie was already there, he went through the bathroom, knocked on the door, opened it, and . . .

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7 Hold Fast

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pp. 131-157

Jimmy Jones had canceled classes for the day, but the Crisis Management Team knew that students who awoke unaware of what had happened wouldn't necessarily find out before heading to . . .

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8 Fault Lines

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pp. 159-183

In her role as student government president, Simone Lutz had spoken at the vigil outside the chapel on the night of October 18. She remembers saying, "'This is a time for hugging and . . .

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9 Another Sad Chapter

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pp. 185-193

At 1:34 a.m. on Friday, November 12, twelve Kalamazoo students received this . . .

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10 All Survivors Are Victims

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pp. 194-224

At some point in the months following October, someone in the upper administration remarked, "I think we've lost a year."
"We were kind of like zombies," Kelly Schulte says of the group of women closest to Maggie. "We were expected to go to class, . . .

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11 The Why of Everything

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pp. 225-250

"Odah shot Wardle and then shot himself."
This is the simplest version, the Public Safety Report version. Maybe it's the best version, or at any rate the safest. If only we could live . . .

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Conclusion: Hauntings and Visitations

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pp. 251-277

The college kept DeWaters 201 “offline”—unoccupied during regular academic sessions—until Neenef’s class had graduated, but not Maggie’s. In the summer of 2000, Dan Poskey . . .

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Acknowledgments

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pp. 279-281

First and foremost, I thank the people who gave me their stories. Several of them knew me very little or did not know me at all and had no reason to trust me with their memories. For many of them, it was . . .

Appendixes

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pp. 283-300

Notes

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pp. 301-309

Sources

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pp. 311-313

Selected Bibliography

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pp. 315-317

Back Cover

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