- Concerning the Existence of God, and: Steam Espresso Bar
Concerning the Existence of God
God is a question, not an answer.
—Kamel Daoud
What light weight faith to be more humbledby wind with its wild palms, crow caws,
a sky overcast in layers of roiling grayand flash. I, who would be cloistered in distant
rolls of thunder, here where rain sheens everything.Or the days I believe my four-chambered heart
is the only constant, my aubade, my aestheticwhen answers are as countless as muscari,
madrigals of blue petals, or star storms,their frequencies bearing witness across vast distances.
Which version would succor me that I woulddeclare it into the very wind itself?
I sting from brambles of uncertainty:such a lonely world, falling into darkness.
Listen, Fugitive God, I speak your name.This pilgrim in search of the question. If I— [End Page 99]
Steam Espresso Bar
Today it is about a walk in October. Gilded leavesspinning in the wind before settling, and still
every seat in Steam is taken but for the oneI slip into after ordering my latté,
hot and honeyed, with a slice of orange blossom cake,its transcendent sweetness abuzz on the tongue.
It is a day when an hour will pass as I huddlein the corner wearing my sweater despite the pour of heat
over shoulders from the vent overhead. What then?Letting the mind cut a path through the daily news,
the clink of voices until I am alone in the room,in the dead center of stillness. Asking
myself what, if anything, matters. This and this.I say to God; he says, I know. [End Page 100]
Writer, teacher, editor, Madelyn Garner’s recent poems have appeared or are forthcoming in The Best American Poetry 2015, The Florida Review, The MacGuffin, Slant, Water-Stone Review, PMS poemmemoirstory, Nimrod, and the anthology Beyond Forgetting, Poetry and Prose about Alzheimer’s Disease. She is the coeditor of the anthology, Collecting Life: Poets on Objects Known and Imagined (2011). Her debut poetry manuscript, Hum of Our Blood, selected for publication in Tupelo Press July Open Reading, will be published by 3: A Taos Press and distributed by Tupelo Press in 2017. madelynpoet@comcast.net