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  • If He Came & Diminished Me & Mapped My Way, and: Col tempo, and: In Theory, and: Anonymous Source, and: Elegy for the Infinite Wrapped in Tinfoil
  • Larry Levis (bio)

If He Came & Diminished Me & Mapped My Way

Who was there in the uncountable stars, in the distance, And in the cold glittering? Who leaned with the wind against the trees all day,

And who slept in the swing’s empty stillness under them?

Who was present in the pattern of the snake fading Into the pattern of the leaves again?

And who presided over the empty clarity of water falling, Water spreading into a thin, white veil Glimpsed just once in a moment clear & empty as a heaven—

Once heaven has been swept clean of any meaning?

Whose childhood is no more than a blackened rafter, Something left after fire has swept through it?

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It is years later when I come back to that place where I’d hiked once, And somehow lost the trail, & then, For a while, walked in the Company of Hallucination & Terror,

And noted afterward, like something closing within me,

That slight disappointment when I found [End Page 176]

The trail again, when the rocks & trees took Their places beside it, & I went on, up To the summit of bare rock & the smoke rising

Lazily out of the small hut there, soup & coffee, A table of brochures & maps of hiking trails

I browsed through idly, recalling being lost, Recalling the way each rock looked, how Expressionless it was, how each

Was the same as another, without a face, until I understood I was completely lost, & then

How someone so thin I could have passed my hand through him

Walked beside me there, & though I did not dare look To see who it was, I glanced sideways once to see

How his ribs depicted famine, & how his steps beside me

Were effortless, were like air gliding through air Again & again without haste or hesitation

As the trail appeared again under my feet & rose Upward in a long series of switchbacks

Through a forest I no longer believed in.

What I felt was diminishment, embarrassment, &

He must be starving by now, his face multiplying To become the haunted faces of others in the streets,

Where to walk at night is to be flayed alive beneath [End Page 177]

The freezing rain, where the trees glisten with ice, And the lights are left on all night in the big stores,

If the pleasure of his company does not last, If the terror of his company does not last, If forgetting or remembering him are the same, now,

As I slow the car, pull over to the curb, And wait until I see my dealer emerge Cautiously as always from the fenced walkway beside

An abandoned house in a street of abandoned, Or nearly vacant & for sale, houses,

And if, by getting high, one can live Effortlessly anywhere for a little while, if

Me & my dealer, a Jamaican named John Donne,

Gaze out at the rain & listen to the hushed clatter Of an empty metal shopping cart someone pushes through the rain,

If we gaze out at the living, & at the dead, & they are the same, If the sound of a bus going past & the sound of the wind

Are the same, are what is left to listen to in the world,

Though the world sleeps, & the trees above us sleep, their limbs Mending themselves in the cold wind,

Then both of Us would avert our Faces from His Face. [End Page 178]

Col tempo

The body is not above mockery: Even one who has failed grows hungry. The woman in the painting’s blind & wears A sign around her neck. You never entirely forget The gray sheen, like steel, of the cataract Covering the one eye that remains open. When I say you to what isn’t there I mean me. It is as if our language did this to us, As if, at some point, we became others in it, Others in a crowd of others who were just like us, Who strolled through the Accademia in Venice, Where sometimes it was raining & sometimes it wasn’t. We stared...

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